I’ve just discovered that I don’t write what I love.
This is the most shocking revelation to date. I love gritty, dark science fiction stories set in dystopian worlds, written with a heavy yet picturesque flourish. However, I tend to write lightly. My ‘dark’ stories are gritty in concept but not in execution. I’m not intensely a science fiction writer so much as a science-fantasy writer. My characters usually struggle with their identity, but not in a manner of crisis. They’re just trying to fit in. My dilemmas are based on character attitude. Internal conflict seems to be my thing. However, everything is a shade lighter than the bleakness I wish to portray. How is this possible? How am I not writing what I love to read or watch?
I’ve accepted my style–or more importantly, what’s not my style. I don’t want to emulate other writers. I don’t want to mirror other stories. I don’t want to be a poor imitation of somebody else’s voice.
So I don’t write what I love, but at least I love what I write.